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Blackness

All the Joy has gone, poisoned and sterile
All the Happiness is dead, carved from my heart.
All that remains is a darkness that sits inside

All the nice words have gone sour,
All the kindness shredded
All that remains is a little voice

A little voice that knows what to say
A little voice that whispers so seductively
A little voice that says that death is warm and loving
A little voice that says that life is not worth living

Despair is his name. Despair is what he does.
Loves has taken her gentleness away, departing in the wind
Despair is there to embrace, to offer comfort and support.
Saying that the pain can end with just a little cut.

Who would miss you? You cause nothing but pain
Even those that promise you love can’t stand you around
Just I little cut, a small pain against the searing hurt if the heart

The warms of flowing blood, the spray of loves vile poison.
The cooling of the pain the numbing of the soul
Then end of living, then the end of pain.

He knows just what to promise, what I want to hear.
He knows that in this blankness reason has no place
He knows all of this because always there

He’s been living in my soul, waiting with a smile.
Watching be build my house of cards knowing that they’ll fall
The last time it was a noose, this time the knife.

Despair knows his trade, despair works so well
Despair has always been there, never far way.
Ready with his embrace whenever I need a hug

Reason is not yet slain, hope makes its last stand.
But when all is said and done, when reason and hope do fight
The truth is still right there, a cannon primed to blow.

Despair has lit the fuse on only waits the blast
Truth is a evil thing, that shows what has happened past
Truth holds on fast and the truth is set in stone that despair has carved

Because the truth is that whenever I have happiness it always slips away
The only time I rise is so that I can fall
That in this impassive world it is selfish man that shapes

Hope make is stand, using it one weapon.
That the future is yet written, that rises can’t all fall
That the evil that men do is ignorance not malice.

Yet what can hope say that despair can’t dispel.
The battle is still rages, yet despair is still rising.
The knife it is still gleaming and the blackness all-consuming


Posted on 07/02/2008 4:01 AM Visits: 91
angelornot: 07/02/2008 5:27 AM
Dont you even fucking dare!
i swear to god I will do the same!
I am sorry
Seb ™★★★: 07/02/2008 7:41 AM
This is so powerful.

***HUGE HUGS****
Millie Ann: 07/02/2008 8:02 AM
Please, don't let this consume you like this. You have other wonderful things in your life. You have your family (don't forget your niece and nephew on the way) and friends. Listen - if you need to get far far away from where you are, you are welcome to come to Pennsylvania and stay with me, Edward and Kenneth. We'll show you a wonderful time, I swear. Sometimes taking a break from all that you know is healthy.
Lucy =): 07/02/2008 8:16 AM
OK, so I don't know you or your situation but this was some very emotional and powerful writing. Wow. I wish you all the love in the world and hope that everything sorts itself out for you. You seem to have some amazing friends on here and I'm sure they will help you through the dark times. love & best wishes xo
Laura: 07/02/2008 8:42 AM
Very intense!
I like it a lot.
Laura: 07/02/2008 8:42 AM
Very intense!I like it a lot.

The poem/words I mean.
Sanyyy: 07/02/2008 9:44 AM
Oh Micheal, I want give you a hug more than ever!
This is so deep.
Stinchey: 07/02/2008 9:47 AM
We can talk about this on Monday over a coffee, my treat!
hungoverandunder: 07/02/2008 10:03 AM
thanks everyone, i need it and i hope i can hold up
paxgitmo: 07/02/2008 10:12 AM
I can't say it any better than lettherebelove.

Just because it's hard to remember sometimes that light (joy, gratefulness,moments of grace) are as much a part of life as darkness. There's a morning every day, I hope you find yours soon.
oldenuff2burmum: 07/02/2008 10:37 AM
im only an hour away,if you need anything at all,please let me know,take care Michael
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hungoverandunder: 07/02/2008 10:39 AM
paxgitmo said:
I can't say it any better than lettherebelove.

Just because it's hard to remember sometimes that light (joy, gratefulness,moments of grace) are as much a part of life as darkness. There's a morning every day, I hope you find yours soon.


well i've had nothing but darkness since i was 8, with the occasional candle to shine some flickering happiness on my live, until i met my love and now the only true sources of happiness i have ever known has cast me off as being to good for her. so when do i get this dawn?

because i can't see it happening
Seb ™★★★: 07/02/2008 11:03 AM

well i've had nothing but darkness since i was 8, with the occasional candle to shine some flickering happiness on my live, until i met my love and now the only true sources of happiness i have ever known has cast me off as being to good for her. so when do i get this dawn?

because i can't see it happening

I think you need to go to a strip joint & totally shit faced. JK

You should get a therapist; they really do help. Please or I'll start sending more messages that make you feel uncomfortable, I might even send you a naked photo of me (please be laughing).
I R Kitten, HEAR ME rewr: 07/02/2008 11:13 AM
I've been in a situation where all my happiness and self-worth was totally tied up with this one person. I still love him very much, but I had to move very far away from him before I had any notion of myself as a separate person. You need to deal with your past and build yourself up and before you can be with another person. (I'm such a hypocrite for writing this, but I know it's true).
No one that knows you wants anything bad to happen to you, and knows that you deserve all the love and happiness in the world. *hug*
hungoverandunder: 07/02/2008 11:17 AM
seb said:
I think you need to go to a strip joint & totally shit faced. JK

You should get a therapist; they really do help. Please or I'll start sending more messages that make you feel uncomfortable, I might even send you a naked photo of me (please be laughing).

i have never been so tempted by alcohol in my life, to just drink my self into oblivion sounds so good.
and you've not made me uncomfortable yet
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